Friday, August 08, 2003
Dark at the end of the tunnel?
At the moment, I'm feeling rather good about the challenges in my life and how I'm experiencing them.
The loss of my laptop shook up my relationship with computers, which was still prone to lingering unhealthy habits [i.e. over-use of computers leading to diminished self-care]. Now, thanks to a deal with a friend I have a desktop computer that more than meets my computing needs.
My financial difficulties are still as pressing as ever, but I've begun to deal with them much better. I've done some work on budgeting, and it looks like I'll be able to scrape by. This has helped me to improve my sense of responsibility and self-reliance. The limited budget has even helped to motivate me to cut down on the massive overconsumption of fats and sugars that has been detrimental to my health even on a diet as healthy as raw foods.
I've finally come to realize that this difficult period of mine wasn't so much a moment of scarcity or abandonment as it was a challenge. Can I learn to work with finite resources? Can I learn to feel safe, happy, and energetic without massive infusions of sweets and unrestrained spending of generous savings?
In reference to my two most recent posts, you might call this the dark at the end of the tunnel. I still have much, much deeper to go in my healing process, but for the moment it looks like the shadows that I've been facing are transforming from fear and adversity to love and inspirational challenge. I thought I already felt good about my earthy-ness, but now I'm feeling better about it. I like life on this wonderful planet of ours, even when it's challenging. Before you know it, I'll be back on track with the newly developing Warrior Healer project and discovering new levels of personal health and fulfillment.
Whatever happens, I can tell already that it's going to be a wild ride! Stay tuned for more details...
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The loss of my laptop shook up my relationship with computers, which was still prone to lingering unhealthy habits [i.e. over-use of computers leading to diminished self-care]. Now, thanks to a deal with a friend I have a desktop computer that more than meets my computing needs.
My financial difficulties are still as pressing as ever, but I've begun to deal with them much better. I've done some work on budgeting, and it looks like I'll be able to scrape by. This has helped me to improve my sense of responsibility and self-reliance. The limited budget has even helped to motivate me to cut down on the massive overconsumption of fats and sugars that has been detrimental to my health even on a diet as healthy as raw foods.
I've finally come to realize that this difficult period of mine wasn't so much a moment of scarcity or abandonment as it was a challenge. Can I learn to work with finite resources? Can I learn to feel safe, happy, and energetic without massive infusions of sweets and unrestrained spending of generous savings?
In reference to my two most recent posts, you might call this the dark at the end of the tunnel. I still have much, much deeper to go in my healing process, but for the moment it looks like the shadows that I've been facing are transforming from fear and adversity to love and inspirational challenge. I thought I already felt good about my earthy-ness, but now I'm feeling better about it. I like life on this wonderful planet of ours, even when it's challenging. Before you know it, I'll be back on track with the newly developing Warrior Healer project and discovering new levels of personal health and fulfillment.
Whatever happens, I can tell already that it's going to be a wild ride! Stay tuned for more details...
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